I am such a SLACKER!

OK so I have gained and lost the same 1 lb over the last week or so, I know it is because of the holidays and all the STUFF that I love tempting me to take just a taste here, a nibble there...I am not HUGELY disappointed in myself because I am enjoying the holidays. VERY much in fact. And have not once PIGGED OUT. just ate a bit here and there.   I really really need to get back on track since I am getting married on NYE, and would like to look my best. I will NOT be at goal, but I have to say that I look pritty good in my clothes now.
Back down to a 14 which is what I have been in most of my adult life. Overweight I am at a 16 - 18.
Yes it would be GREAT to get into a size 9 like I was in high school, but lets not get stupid.
And I have NEVER EVER been a size 2. even in GRADE SCHOOL LOL.
I am 5'10" tall, and according to the Dr. I have a med. to large frame. (I have line backer shoulders)
So I am not trying to be in a size 2.   I hope everyone else had a wonderful holiday! 

FINALLY!!! ONEDERLAND!

Just barely, but still below 200. 199.5 I think I cheered!
I have been slacking but still losing slowly slowly.  I have more of an incentive.  I ordered my dress online.
Getting MARRIED on NYE!!! wooo hoooo!
Just a JP, coming and we are getting married in front of the Christmas Tree!
of course there WILL be pictures!

Today's plan:
Brkfst: apple
Lunch: salad w/ grilled chicken
Dinner: baked chicken & veggies.
(ok so I ate a munchkin this AM. shoot me!)

Down 1 lb - so very close to ONEderland

was stuck, mainly due to my lack of discipline, so I did an apple day yesterday.
today down. YES!!
Tomorrow is shopping day with MOM. we traditionally go out on a Monday Christmas shopping.
Then have lunch at Olive garden. I have a plan. Going to get some sort of fish...ask for salad NO DRESSING. avoid the bread!!! which will be hard. And TRY to stay on plan.
Will bring an apple with me just in case.  I figure if I eat that first I won't be STARVING.

Too many things going on in my life that are stressing me out. I am hoping to be past it all by Christmas.
But it makes an emotional eater like me find it very hard not to whip up some comfort food and pig out.
Doing extrodinarily well under the circumstances.  :)

Today's plan:
Brkfst: orange
Lunch Chicken, lettuce & tomato
Dinner: steak, onions, apple.

dowl .5 lb - yay!

It's a start anyway. I am still feeling icky. taking zinc and eating an orange for breakfast. I also got some throat lozenges that have vitamin C in them.   yes they have sugar in them, but I think my health comes before weight loss.   And it is not much. Trying to get in all my water.
used the last of the first mixture, mixing up a new batch of HCG tomorrow.
currently taking .5 cc at 150IU per day. Skipping Sundays.

Today's Plan:
Brkfst: Orange
Lunch: Talapia and spinach w/onions
Dinner: Chicken breast, asparagus. - Apple

Stalled

Mainly due to TOM and when I have it, I am ravenous! I ate stuff off plan...not much but I did.
So I have been at 203 for 5 days. Today I have stuck to protocol to the letter and drinking lots of tea and water. And if I am not down tomorrow, I will do an apple day.
I am also coming down with something, which makes me want to curl up on the sofa with comfort food, the cat and a blanket.
But I am controlling myself, I keep telling myself, you spent good money on this plan, now stop sabotaging yourself and stick to it!!! 

Today's plan:
Brkfst: Orange
Lunch: lettuce, cucumber, onion, chicken, soy sauce, rice wine vinegar
Dinner: Talapia, onions & spinach, melba toast, Apple

??? TOM? You're not supposed to be here.

OK so last night I did something I havn't done in years. I lost control and binged on a bunch of stuff.
NOT a HUGE binge comparatively speaking, but ate a bunch of stuff off protocol.  a couple gingersnaps, a bite of ice cream, some chicken breast. (after I had already had dinner) it was odd, I felt like I could eat a horse.  (going to skip my injection today)

And I ate, knowing it was off plan and I didn't care. Then this morning out of the blue, TOM showed up.
Maybe this is why, I don't know. I am only up 1.5 lb and I know I will get back on track and lose it, but it was just odd.  I get TOM once every 3 months due to the BC I am on. not due to have it till End of Dec.

Meh. I am not going to beat myself up about the eating, I am just going to get back on track and let it go. Stressing over it will just cause me to go into another Binge or give up on the plan. Look ma, I learned a lesson! LOL.

Anyhow, today's plan:
Brkfst: 1 orange, coffee
Lunch: grilled chicken, cabbage.
Dinner: Ground beef "chili", lettuce & tomato. Apple.

Feeling awesome today!

Except I seem to be having to go to the ladies room MORE than usual. even when I do drink my tons of water. I think I am going to have to invest in some DEPENDS!
But seriously, I feel like I am going every 30 min. geesh.
I released a half a lb today. go me!   I like the 1 lb a day releases, but hey, lets not get GREEDY right?

I am so close to ONEderland I can almost taste it!!! 3 more lbs. I havn't been under 200 lbs in years!
And I was in denial about it for such a long time.  I kept using the excuse that I am a TALL girl, and never been small. (I have the linebacker shoulders of my brother - back when shoulder pads were IN. I didn't need them. LOL)   But I can see that all that self talk was Bullsh**.
I CAN be under 200 and over 40! even at 5'10".

Today's plan:
Brkfst: 1/2 grapefruit w/Truvia & cinnamon.
Lunch: chicken, raw spinach & 1/4 tomato w/ ACV
Dinner: ?

Down another 1 lb!

Going to get my water and drink drink drink, because I know I ate a bit more chicken than 3 oz last night. but I will take the loss!  I also ate 1 potato and the chicken was cooked with skin, which I removed after.
That usually does not go well with my diet. BUT IT WAS GOOOOOD.

Tonight I will have to curb my craving for pasta. I am making american chop suey for my family...which we all love. Pasta is my weekness. But I CAN DO IT!!! :)
I am feeling AWESOME today. After about a week on the VLCD I got a sence of euphoria. Like my body was singing Hallejulla!!!!!!  I really have to try to find out what makes me feel so sluggish when I am not on the strickness of the VLCD. I have looked up some great gluten free sites. And going to go with that this round once I start P4.

Today's plan:
Brkfst: Apple, w/truvia & cinnamon (yum!)
Lunch: sauted lean ground beef & spinach
Dinner: chicken fried "rice" (ground cabbage) Apple.

R2P2Day4VLCD - Down .5 :)

Feeling soooooo much better today. Got to go to the store and get some basics. I feel more prepared.
Down 4.5 since start of P2  -
Need to drink more water today.
Stress is much lower today. Long talk with the BF. Life is good. Now if I could win the lottery and have some more $$ it would be perfect!
:)
Today's plan:
Brkfst: 1/2 grapefruit w/stevia, coffee
Lunch: Steak, over lettuce w/ACV dressing
Dinner: Chicken thigh, celery & onion.  Apple.

R2P2 - down 1.5 lbs!

Having a difficult time due to the fact that I didn't get to go shopping before starting P2. Not much in the house to work with. but doing pritty well just the same.
Made grilled fish and rice for the family. I had the fish and some asparagus...which I put the leftovers in a container for lunch today.  :)
Have a Dr. visit today. can't wait to see if my Doc says anything about the weight loss.
Feel good but tired due to not sleeping well last night.
Also arguing with the BF. I HATE stress....well then again who does?!
Things will work out...but I really just want to SHAKE that man.  He's a good guy, but a guy none the less, and I have come to the conclusion that "boys are stupid" (yes that old kindergarden addage is TRUE!)
and we have to forgive them because sometimes they know not what they do. 
OH and I just remembered cauliflower is not on plan. BLARG!

Today's plan:
Brkfst: Coffee, 1/2 apple
Lunch: Fish, asparagus & cauliflower, 1/2 apple
Dinner: Steak, sauted cabbage & onion.

BACK ON P2! yay! - Round 2, - Day 2 VLCD

I am hungry today. But I messed up and forgot to take my shot on Saturday.
So I get it, but am NOT going off protocol.  I loaded for 3 days, and was up to 210.5.
Today... Day 2 of VLCD. I am 206.5. yay! only .5 over LID from Round 1.
I am happy with this to start.  So away we go.
Today's plan:
Brkfst: Coffee - 1/2 grapefruit w/stevia
Lunch: Lettuce, 3 oz grilled chicken
Dinner: 3.5 oz fish, asparagus, Apple

Going thru an emotional time right now. I am really hoping that I don't blow it because I am stressed out, freaked out and just plain MAD.
Wish me luck!

I've been HUNGRY lately

I am waiting to start Round 2 of HGC. on Phase 4.
And I am hungry. I want to eat non-stop. I know this is emotional eating, which I have been really good about. but I really feel like I need to eat something. I am getting water now to curb it. but still. GRRRRR just because you understand something, doesn't always mean you can fix or control it.
And it frustrates me!
I am still logging everything I put in my mouth in Spark people. So hopefully that keeps me more accountable.
but at night....when no one is watching...is when I tend to go overboard. *sigh* I guess I will just have to tell my BF to keep a better eye on me.

Always look on the Bright side of Life!

Ok so it is dull and gloomy outside and starting to get COLD.   I am not feeling great.
Last night I was up 5x with Montazuma's revenge. Not sure why.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. I am back within 2 lb of LID. LOL - hey you gotta take the good with the bad.
I am sleepy but at work. looking out the window at the gray world.  Drinking my Hot water w/Lemon.
Made fish and white rice for dinner last night. (I know bad white carbs!) but I LOVE rice, and until I find a wild rice that doesn't have tons of fat or taste like straw, I will have my white rice once in a while. (until I am back on P2)
Planned on going to the gym, but my stomach felt like crap, and all I could think is what if I have another bout and have to run to the ladies room...that will be embarrassing. My Gym is at my work. do I really want to have a near accident in front of the people I work with...the answer was NO! so I stayed in bed for an extra 30 min. It was awesome.
I read some other blogs...and they are doing great with motivation. I am not feeling it today. Hopefully I will have time for a massage tomorrow or Wed. and that will get me back on track.
No clue what to make for dinner...going to SparkPeople for some recipe ideas and to track my daily foods.
Maybe that will help.

up 4 lbs! yikes

And I am excersizing, I guess not enough. I wish I had more than 40 min to dedicate to it.
*sigh* I am going to go get some more protein shakes and maybe do a shake day.
I will have to wait till next week to do a steak day. I only get paid every 2 weeks, and since I quit my 2nd job, Cash is TIGHT. so no shopping between times. And NO STEAK in the freezer.

I am logging my calorie intake on spark people so I am hoping to stay under 1200 and maybe that will get me back to 206.  

Stabalizing is HARD! as I have said many times before!
I have my worst time at home. in the evening. During the day I am fine. At home I tend to have a 2nd helping of dinner or a snack. I am hoping that tracking all the food I eat will make me STOP this habit.

SNOW!? not ready!

So my BF leaves the house around 4 am. he got up and told me it was snowing...but he is a wise-ass sometimes so I thought he was kidding me. I rolled over and went back to sleep. Got up to get ready for the gym...and by-gosh it really did snow. BLAH. I had to go and FIND my ice scraper thingy, so I could sweep the 1/2 of snow off my car. Not alot really. but just NOT READY!  With all this going on, I forgot to weigh myself this morning.
I DID get to the gym though and worked out on the eliptical and then did some squats, kicks and curls with a weight bar.   yay.
Ate Potatoes for the first time in a while last night. not alot, but roasted carrots and potatoes with the chicken. ...so yummie.
Today I tried a protein bar for breakfast. I am hungry.
but I will wait till Lunch to eat again.
Tonight will be eating carbs again. Making america chop suey. hoping not to gain.
Pasta is my weakness and I tend to overeat when I have it. Going to try eating some salad before dinner to curb this issue.

Not feeling the love for the Journey today

I went out and had wine last night, and I am not a big drinker. so 2 glasses of wine (BIG glasses) and a shot of SoCo gave me a horrible headache this morning. And there was no sleeping in. We are watching my nephew (4yo) and he gets up early, I could hear him puttering around this morning talking to the cat. So of course I got up. ugh. Now I want to eat everything in the house.
But I am behaving, so far.
I started with a V-8. then I had a nice mushroom and cheese omlet, and some greek yogurt and now coffee.
Tonights dinner is going to be chicken thighs baked with potatoes onions and carrots.

I am back down a bit. today I weighed in at 208.5  I think it was the sugar in the wine. since yesterday morning I was at 207.5
I will be glad to start P2 again! so much easier to maintain your weight when you are limited as to what you can eat.
I made cauliflower crust pizza on Friday, with BBQ chicken and onions on it. YUM!

209.5 Day 5 of P4.

Well I guess my body likes 209. As I have been here for several days. But I am also eating carbs and sugar, so I may have to cut that out to get back to LID weight - 206.
I really missed rice! I have not started eating cereal again yet though.
I am happy with my loss, and I am looking forward to taking the other 30 lbs off.
I understand now why so many people have Web pages that offer to help people with HGC.
It is very uplifting to help others find the joy that is HCG and how great it can feel to lose that extra weight.
I have 2 woman who are asking me about it, and I have directed them to the same site I get my HCG at. And gave them each printed copies of P&I.

Will be going to the gym again tomorrow morning. And I have committed myself to going online to track my foods and calories everyday. I think that will help keep me on track.
However I have found my Kriptonite...it is snack size packages of candy.
I have never been a big sweet eater...but when these are readily available at every turn...it is hard to resist.
I had 1 small bag of M&Ms yesterday after a nice healthy salad. then kicked myself for doing it.
*sigh*

I got one of the nicest compliments today... And he didn't even realize he gave it to me.
I dropped off coffee and a bagel to my BF at his work this morning. I had decided to wear a skirt that finally fits me again, and he saw me walking toward him and he gave me that WOW look. It was awesome, and I caught him looking at me as I walked away too.  I tell you, I was walking on cloud 9. Nothing better than knowing the person you love thinks your a hot tamale'

I am going to try to get a photo of me in this outfit so I can post it later. :)

Blog I applologize for avoiding you!!!

So stabilization is Hard. P2 was a peice of chicken compared to this. (notice I avoided the C word)
Mainly because I DIDN'T avoid it the last few days. I am up 3 lbs. but totally deserved.
I didn't avoid the carbs, candy and cake the last few days. (dirty C words!)
It was Halloween, and my Son's Birthday. We had a party, and I didn't deprive myself. However, I went in knowing full well I would have to pay the piper later. So I am doing so now.

This morning I got up early, Scraped the FROST off my windsheild and headed to the gym.
25 min on the eliptical, 5 min free weights, 5 min crunches. Then had coffee and a Jay Robb Shake w/ greek yogurt in it for Brkfst.
Planning on Grilled chicken and salad for lunch. Dinner is going to be a problem. I have no clue what to make. Going to call my son to take out the hamburger I have frozen. Maybe I can figure out something to make that is not too high fat/carbs. maybe saute with onions and rice and stuff it in peppers or cabbage.  I am on P4 so I can have Rice (I LOVE RICE!)
Here's hoping I can get back down ...NO here is KNOWING I will lose the extra 3 lbs before restrarting P2.

Up again. 3 lbs

Doing SORT OF a protein day. I did have a salad and soup for lunch.  If I am still up tomorrow I will do another steak day. or a full protein day. P3 is HARD. I know it is because I ate some pasta.
But I was tired of NO carbs  with my chicken parm.  so I am paying for it...it is not unexpected.
So I guess that makes it manageable.

Still at 209 I am happy. my clothes fit so much better. or they are loose.
I am wearing things that I had to put away. and this makes me smile.
tonight I have no clue what we are having for dinner. I think I have cabbage and Keilbasa in the house. so I guess stir fry it is. LOL
I don't have the cash to order out or I would just get a big salad, and a chicken from Market Basket.
*sigh* sore throat again this morning. Hoping to stave it off with hot water and salt water gargling.

It is HARD to be on P3 right now. there are my fav. Reeses PB cups out at just about every desk I pass at work. And twizzlers. ugh.   doing well at resisting them. but I think I heard them calling me by my first name today~!

Baking day!

I forgot to weigh in this morning. I think I am good. yesterday I was at 207 which is 1 lb up.
Today I am making the recipe I found for cream cheese danish...they were a little flat and Meh. Will try it again. I don't think I whipped the egg whites stiff enough.
The Pumpkin muffins were FANTASTIC, my son loves them.
then made almond cookies. they were more like crackers than cookies I might try adding honey or more truvia next time. Not bad. just not what I thought they would be.
And last made some more coffee cake bread. very yummy with oregano and sprinkled with rosemary before cooking, made it sort of like a foccachia bread. made a sandwich with it. yum.
Tonight I will be baking chicken with green beans and mashed cauliflower.

I put some of the recipes on this page. :)

Spoke too soon! Up 2.5 lbs.

Ok didn't blog the last few days...let me catch up. When I did a protein day...I got totally depressed on Tuesday...and Ate Pizza and ice cream. I got that JUST DON'T CARE depression. I am going to have to work on that.  I know this.  I was up 4 lbs yesterday. But I went to the Gym and worked out and ate sensibly. 20 min on Eliptical, and 15 min doing squats, sit-ups and leg excersizes.  down to only 2.5 over LID.
Today I am cold, my office is freezing. Which makes me crave food. I am resisting. Had 1/2 grapefruit and 1 hard boiled egg for breakfast with coffee.  It is only 11 and I am starving. So I had an apple.  I brought my lunch so I will avoid eating something warming and bad for me. Last night we had steak and I made "noodles" out of zuccini. I made "mac" and cheese with them for lunch today with left over steak (about 3.5 oz) And will eat something sensable for dinner. Probably sauted veggies in veg broth and shrimp.
Then will hit the gym again tomorrow.   hoping to make some nice vegetable soup as comfort food for tomorrow.
Keeping fingers crossed to get back to 206 before the weekend.

P3D7 - holding steady at 206

Yesterday was really busy, and we ate a late breakfast of turkey bacon omlet, with mushrooms, onions and cheese. so very yummie. but going to have to find a new brand this one had sugar in it.
Had dinner OUT. for the first time since starting on HCG. They had a low carb menu at 99. I had the steak topped w/blue cheese, brocolli and grilled tomoto. it was very good!
Then went to the movies. All in All Sunday was a great day!
Today is the first time I have gone to the gym. I am exausted. I think I did too much leg work, and squats because my legs are so sore. I am going to try making P3 Almond Cookies. still need to find vanilla Whey.
The Mock Beef-a-roni was GREAT! 

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: Coffee, Greek Pomagranate Yogurt
• Lunch: Vegetable soup, Salad, Grilled chicken, chick peas, cheddar cheese, & marinated mushrooms
• Dinner: TBD
• Snack: Apple

Too busy yesterday to blog, catching up today

So yesterday morning I was up almost 3 lb over LWD.
So I planned on doing a steak day. OMG I was so hungry at 1:30 and had a headache, was drinking tons of water but it didn't help. So I hate the inside of a roast beef wrap. 2 slices roast beef, 1 slice cheese and some lettuce. I helped alot.
Dinner was a BIG steak and an apple.  a little bit of chocolate delight.
This morning back down to only .5 lb over LWD. (206.5) yay!
Will be more careful with what I eat today.
I made coffee cup bread, I will put that on my recipe tab later.
had half of it with some cream cheese and I liked it.
However, it is rather small to use as bread for a sandwich like some people have stated they do.
I may make it in a small bowl if I make it for sandwiches.
It was tasty, but need one without cinnamon if I am going to eat as bread.
OH and an update on the cauliflower pizza crust. it was great. It was the macadamia nuts I had too many of I think that contributed to the additional lb up.  And Large breakfast.

I have a recipe for Mock Beefaroni, using eggplant as "noodles" I am going to substitute Ground Turkey  though.

Today's plan

• Brkfst: coffee, coffee cup bread
• Lunch: Mock Beefaroni
• Dinner: very busy today, at lunch at 4 pm. so no dinner.
• Snack: Apple, choc delight.

Too busy yesterday to blog, catching up today

So yesterday I was up almost 3 lbs from LWD. so I did a steak day.
Wow not eating all day is hard, at about 1:00 I was so hungry I ate 1 slice of roast beef, a slice of cheese, and some lettuce.   Then for dinner a BIG steak and an apple.
All is good back down to only .5 over LWD. yay.
This morning I made coffee cup bread. it was good with some cream cheese on it.
I think I am making mock Beefaroni for lunch. basically using ground turkey and making "noodles" out of eggplant. 
Also going to go for a walk today to get in some excersize.
Today's plan:

• brkfst: 2 slices coffee cup bread
• Lunch: Mock beefaroni
• Dinner: not sure yet. TBD.
• snack: Apple

P3D3 - up almost 2 lb

but not quite, AND I ate 2 bites of mashed potatoes. (bad kim!)  and I got carried away with almonds. Probably ate a good handFULL. 
Today drinking more water and Tea.  Hopefully that will even it back down. but I need to start at the Gym!
Will try to get there tomorrow. or at least go for a walk.
Going to grocery to get some flaxseed meal or coconut flour so I can make stuff like coffee cup "bread"
And also cauliflower, so i can make cauliflower crust Pizza.

Today's Plan:

• Breakfast: 1 c grapefruit sections, 2 hardboiled eggs, coffee
• Lunch: 2 C greens, red onion, 6 oz salmon, feta cheese, cherry tomatos, mushrooms (dressing on the side, olive oil and spices, possible sugar)
• Dinner: cauliflower Crust; steak & cheese Pizza
• Snack: Apple

P3D1 (-30) 206

Last night I ate a handfull of almonds, and they were fabulous. I figured I was close enough to the 1st day of P3 to have them. They may have had some sugar on them, but I am still at 206 this morning. hopefully it will not affect my stabalization. Today I am ordering Breakfast with my coffee.
I got greek yogurt then realized yogurt is not on P3 but P4. So I went back and got a whole egg omlet, with cheese, mushrooms and ham. (probably should have skipped the ham- salt possible sugar)
But it was YUMMIE.
I miss toast, but am going to try making whoopsie bread or coffee cup bread tonight.
need to go to the grocery to get things for P3. Can't wait to have avacados and Hummus.
woot!
Today's plan:

• Brkfst: Omelet - olive oil, eggs, 1/4 c ham, 2 slices cheese, 1/4 c mushrooms - coffee
• Lunch: Salad, marinated mushrooms, chicken, wine vinegar
• Dinner: spinach, whoopsie bread, steak,
• Snack: baked apple
• Edited: didn't make the whoopsie bread. Ate 2 bites of mashed potato. made sauted (in coconut oil) cabbabe, onion & spinach. And for snack, I had a handfull of almonds.

P2 ending headed to P3 at -30lbs

So I am not sure if I am still in P2 untill I stop the VLCD or not.
but I stopped taking HCG on Sunday. Today will be my 3rd day with no injection and my last day on the VLCD.
I am hungry today so I know I have it out of my system, but will follow protocol till the end of the day.
Can't wait to try making cauliflower pizza crust.  :)
looking forward to adding foods this week.
Hopefully I will stay at 206.  Then on round 2 try to lose 30 more lbs.!
This has been GREAT! I also hope I continue to feel as awesome as I did during P2.
Also going to try to stick to a gluten free diet from now on. I am not going to kill myself avoiding carbs, but cooking lighter will be better for everyone in my family. so I will be going shopping for Flaxseed meal and coconut flour. And see how well we do with it. I have already gotten the coconut oil to cook with.

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: Coffee
• Lunch: Salad, chicken, and an apple
• Dinner: sauted spinach, fish
• Snack: Strawberries

P3 here I come! P2D45 (-30) Not too shabby

I would love to have been on HCG for 40 days and lost 40 lbs. but 30 lbs is nothing to turn up my nose at!
Yesterday was last Saturday was last HCG injection.
staying on VLCD till the end of Tuesday. Wednesday will start my journey on P3.
I am ready. I think 40 days on the VLCD is too long.
I would do shorter rounds next time.
Not because I was hungry...but because I missed other foods.
I got bored and cheated. and that lowered my motivation.
I wanted to taste other things, and my son's ice cream was too much to watch!!! lol
Looking forward to stabalizing, then eating other foods and keeping to this weight.
Which today is at 206. if I can do as well on my second round I will be THRILLED!
Plan:

• Brkfst: apple & Coffee
• Lunch: Shrimp & baby spinach salad w/ACV
• Dinner: grilled chicken & sauted Cabbage
• Snack: Apple (2 bites of gravel crunch)

This morning I was at 205.5!

I did an apple day yesterday. I am hoping I can keep that off. My last apple day 1 lb came back the next day.
I would love to be at 205 to end this 1st round that would mean a 30 lb loss.

I went and bought new work out pants because my others were falling off, and when I start P3 I would like to start doing yoga or something to tighten up my abs.  So after finding some really cute yoga pants and nice shirt, it was so nice out I convinced my love to go for a nice walk with me. We took my mom's dog Baxter and had a nice 1.5 mile walk. it was great! 

Came home and made homemade spaghetti sauce, some meatballs and a spinach lasagna for the BF and my sons for tomorrow since I will be working all day. So they will have a choice of making meatball subs or having the lasagna. Knowing my boys.(all 6'1" of them) they will choose both. LOL I wish I could eat like them and never gain an oz.

Feeling great today. Tasted the sauce, but made with NO oil or sugar and 98% lean ground beef, so I should be all good.
Today's plan:

• Brkfst: Coffee
• Lunch: 3.5 oz ground beef, onion garlic & yellow pepper sauted together w/1 Tbsp tomato paste
• Dinner: fish and steamed asparagus
• Snack: apple

Down another .5...I think.

Odd that when I weighed in after waking I was up 2 lb. then took my shower and weighed again down .5
I am taking the lower weight.  :)  Forgot to take my injection this morning. so going to take a 1/2 dose when I get home from work before going to my 2nd job.
Hopking this does not throw me off, since I only have 1 week left to go.
Want to get as low as I can before starting P3.

I also want to start some sort of excersize soon, I find I am weak going up a flight of stairs, mainly because I just don't work out anymore. will start something slow.  maybe yoga and taking the stairs at work more.

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: 1 cup grapefruit peices w/ stevia, Coffee
• Lunch: grilled chicken w/chili powder and LA, lettuce w/ACV & spices
• Dinner: Grilled shrimp & tomato & cucumber salad
• snack: Apple slices

P2D40 - 28.5 lb Released.

I am very excited about my apple day. worked like a charm. - 4 lbs!
I wish I had done this after my very first stall that lasted for 4 days.
My advise to anyone reading this. if you KNOW you cheated...don't wait for the stall...do an apple day.
It was easy, I wasn't hungry, AND I only ate 4 of the apples out of the 6 I was allowed. 

I do get discouraged when I think that I SHOULD have lost 40 lbs by the 40th day. But you know what. I feel absolutley fantastic. And I will take the 28 lbs I have lost
I am almost to 30 lbs. I havn't been this low in weight in years, even on Weight Watchers!
I have NO acid reflux. No bloated gassy feelings. in fact I have no gas at all!

Today I put on a really cute little suit I bought years ago for an interview. I only wore it once because it was just too tight, and never wore it to the interview.
I don't know why I bought it if it was tight to begin with.  It is still in style. One of those classic skirt and jacket type suits. I pulled it out of the BACK of the closet and tried it on today. It looks GREAT.
Since I work in an office I have to wear business type clothes and this is perfect.

I don't understand why so many people are afraid to take HCG. I have a friend who is diabetic, and needs to lose weight. She talks about joining WW or going to the gym, but doesn't. I tell her how EASY this was. but she googled the side affects of HCG and won't take it. I told her have you googled the side affects of the Pill?  it is basically the same risks, yet tons of women, including me take those. 
And what about smokers...look at those risks, and yet people still smoke...not that I am condoning smoking in any way. But what I am saying is EVERYTHING has some sort of risk. Heck, a few years back they were convinced that HAMBURGER raised your risk of cancer.   Have people stopped eating hamburger? nope.   I wish someone had told me about HCG years ago. I could have saved my money on WW, and the Oprah cookbook, and the other diet books and pills I wasted my money on.

Ok I guess this is a longer post than anticipated. I just LOVE that this is working! 

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: Pumpkin Coffee, Strawberries, stevia
• Lunch: Shrimp, mixed lettuce, ACV, lemon & basil
• Dinner: Steak, cabbage, apple.

So I found I have Some willpower, just not ALOT of will power.

We went to the Big E on Sunday. And I resisted the Giant Cream puff, and the HUGE baked potato.
But I didn't resist "helping" my nephew clean up his ice cream cone when it was dripping all over; and I did give in to some kettle corn. I didn't really see anything on plan when it was lunch time and I was getting a little hungry so I had a shish-ka-bob on a stick, which might have been more then 3 oz of meat. And I had a diet soda.
Then when we got home and it was time to make dinner I caved in and had a corn on the cob that I had grilled outside, and a small helping of rice and beans.

So now I am up 1.5 lb. NOT as bad as I thought it might be.
AND I forgot to take my injection today. grrrrr. (that is what rushing will get you)
I am doing an apple day to see if I can get back on Track. I will not throw in the towel though. Getting back on the horse as they say and will deal with my indiscressions. Heck we can't be Good ALL THE TIME!!!
Forgot about the not having to drink as much water on an apple day, but have only drank 2 -8 oz bottles so far, so going to quit now.

Hoping this reverses my cheat. and I may take a walk tonight as well.
Keeping fingers crossed.

Today's Plan:
6 apples as needed for hunger.

cheated? Kind of

So today I am up .5 lb. I decided I didn't want asparagus last night. I work 2 jobs and when I got home, I didn't feel like cooking before heading off to 2nd job. so I ate 3oz of the pot roast from the crock pot and then had some of the pearl onions and parsnips and maybe 2 chunks of carrot. I know parsnips and carrots are not on Protocol but really I ate 2 1" chunks. of each.  and a 1/2" chunk of potato.
This protocol is SOOOOO unforgiving. But I was rushing. oh well .5 is NOT bad!
And it will come back off. I have to keep the possitive in my life not dwell on the negative.
BF woke up feeling gross this morning.
I REFUSE to be sick this weekend. I have the entire weekend off from BOTH jobs!

Still stressing about the State Fair on Sunday. but I am going to pack a back pack with some protein (grilled chicken maybe?) and celery sticks and apples. and HOPEFULLY not have a stall.  and can resist the stuff I miss. I think if this were earlier in my HCG journey I would have no problem, but it is my 35 day. and it is getting old fast. I have done great. but I miss eating regular foods.
So this is why it will be harder.

going to drink LOTS of water and maybe bring some tea in  a travel mug.

Today is the first day I have been sort of depressed on this protocol. I Physically feel GREAT.
but mentally I am tired and blue. I want to crawl back in bed and sleep all day.
Of course it has been typhoon type weather for the past 2 days, so I am sure that has alot to do with it.
Rain is supposed to stop later today, but stay cloudy and overcast thru Sunday.
BLAH!
Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: Pumpkin flavored black coffee, Strawberries w/Stevia
• Lunch: 1 hard boiled egg, 2 hard boiled egg whites, salad, red wine vinegar
• Dinner: Asparagus, Pot Roast
• Snack: baked apple.

Still headed in the right direction! P2D35 -26LB

Released another lb. doing the happy dance.
This weekend I am going to be saddled with a HUGE Challenge. I am going to the Big E with friends.
(Eastern States Exposition) The best part of the Big E is the all the wonderful foods that they have there.
I am HOPING there will be some good choices but I don't remember there EVER being anything healthy.
I may have to pack my lunch, and suffer while everyone else is eating fried dough, and baked potatos and apple pie.  Wondering if I cheated one day would it be worth it. I am thinking NO.

Hopefully we can go and see the great STUFF there. And I can keep my mind off all the food stuff.
Normally I would have what I wanted then maybe hit the gym the next day. However while on HGC it seems that anything out of the protocol really makes you gain.  so thinking NOT WORTH IT!

Wish me luck

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: sliced apple, coffee
• Lunch: grilled chicken w/ cucumber & tomato salad, ACV dressing
• Dinner: asparagus, pot roast, Strawberries w/stevia

I have reached the 25 released mark!!

Not sure why this seems like such a milestone, but I am syched! this means I have lost over 10% of my body weight!  I mean wow just think of it. I have released the amount of a 1 yr old child!  I still have a ways to go, another 35 lbs to be exact. But I am loving this. I can "shop" for clothing in the back of my closet where I pushed them because I knew they were too tight.

Not really having a good day today, work wise. I have a woman I work with that sometimes I just want to SLAP. she does things to undermine me, and runs to my boss everytime she THINKS she has some sort of mistake I have made.  I don't get it. she has a higher possition than mine. so she can't want my job. Is it that she is jelous of something else? the good repore I have with people. I can't begin to tell. I would love to ask her. Just sit down and say...what is it that you stand to gain by doing that? Why do you TRY your best to get under people's skin. (because it isn't just me...there is another girl she had in TEARS the other day.)  So I am just venting. I'm done now.  Just wow. Why?

So I have made my final decision. to go off HCG and into P3 the 2nd week of Oct.  So I will have 3 weeks at P3 and 3 weeks at P4. Then start up HCG for Thanksgiving Load Days.
Then I will have to be good at Christmas, but that should n't be too hard. Next round will only be 20 - 25 days. I don't think I could do 45 days on the VLCD again. I am doing GREAT. but it really is something you have to totally commit to, and be completely STRICT with.
I did GREAT the first 30 days. but I have started DREAMING about Food. Thinking about the things I can't have. I think 30 days is long enough to deprive myself of things.

However, I am going to be really good about the healthy foods we eat. and the unhealthy foods we are no longer going to eat. Going to start eating more towards a glutin free diet.
Health is so important.

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: Apple, Coffee
• Lunch: grilled chicken, salad, red wine vinegar
• Dinner: Sauted cabbage, onion & Shrimp
• Snack: Strawberries w/stevia

P2 D 33 - Releasd another 1 lb. total 24.5 lb down

So today I am down another lb. very happy about this. need to keep up with the water!
I find that I slow down when i don't drink enough water. However, I am getting up 3 x a night to use the bathroom!  I am hoping this will stop soon, or at least decrease to 1x.

I have been with my current company for 5 years on Oct 10. I got to pick out a gift, picked out a Phillips GoGear Ariaz. Which is basically an I-pod, it has an FM radio on it and you can dl audio books and 8 G of music. I am playing with it instead of sorting the mail. LOL
The sound is awesome. I think this is going to be great when I start walking again. Right now I am doing so well on this Protocol without excersize that I haven't been on a treadmill or outside to walk at all.
And now that it is getting cold...not sure if I wanna start an outdoors walk program till next spring!

I went against better judgement and advice;  and made strawberry gel. (ie: unflavored gelatin, brewed orange herbal tea, stevia and pureed strawberries) It came out really good, and it is VERY yummie. Ate some last night for my dessert. and still lost. Had some today for breakfast. We will see if it affects my releases.
One set I pureed the strawberries and the other I just cut up the berries and poured the gel over them and chilled.   it is just PURE gelatin no addatives or flavors which is why I used the flavored tea as my hot water.

I hope it doesn't cause a stall, because it was really tastey and was something different.  I am getting bored with my choices of meals. However last night I made some REALLY yummie chicken. I will start a recipe page to keep notes on.  I even served it to my family (with tortillas and told them it was fajita chicken) They loved it.   I have no clue why I used to use oil to saute chicken when a little broth is all I needed for this.  It is great to realize you can cook healthier FOREVER. not just on a plan or diet.
Maybe EVERYONE in the house will have a lower colesterol level soon!

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: strawberry gel
• Lunch: Salad w/grilled chicken, w/ ACV, garlic powder, oregano & celery seed.
• Dinner: Shrimp, chineese cabbage sauted /w chunks of apple in chicken broth

And another one bites the dust! released 1 lb today.

Sometimes I get discouraged when I look at the days vs releases. I am on Day 32 and I have released 23.5 lbs. In the beginning I thought I would lose a lb EVERY DAY so technically...I should be down 32 lbs. Not so.  I have had a few stalls, and tasted a few things I shouldn't have. so it shows.
All I can say to anyone STARTING. don't even TASTE anything that is not on Protocol.
Which is really hard for me, because I love cooking for my family. I love to watch my BF eat.  he enjoys it so much. And it makes me proud that I can make what he likes.

Today however, I am looking up. It is a bleek day. dark and rainy, but I took out a skirt that my BF picked out for me about a year ago. it was tight then and didn't zip 1/4 inch from the top, I got it because he liked it, and i wore it once. Then I gained just a little weight and wearing it was not an option.
This morning it zipped right up. all the way to the top, and looked nice. I wore it to work today.
I felt thin. I know I have 40 lbs to go. but I look so much better just having lost 23.5 lbs.
I am 5'10 and can "get away" with more weight for some reason. 5 extra lbs on a tall girl vs 5 extra pounds on a 4'5" girl really is different.

I could just say hey my bf thinks I look great. I can quit. But I am not doing this for the BF or for anyone else for that matter. I want to put my weight into a bmi scale and NOT have it say Obese.
I WANT to be in ONEderland.  for me!  I want to shop off the rack, or pull out the clothing I have in a bin int he basement that says size 12 & 14. And have them fit  or heck even be TOO BIG.

I hate to say, I am one of those women that saves everything as long as it is not falling apart or unusable.
I have 2 punch bowls, a silver set, and 3 crock pots, collecting dust in the basement...along with my "thin" clothing. But I am determined to get those back out and wear them....(if they can still be modified to the current style) no I will not be wearing fringe or bell bottoms, Unless they suddenly make a HUGE comeback. LOL!

I no longer want to be the girl with the pritty face. The woman that can't shop at Victoria secrets because they don't make panties in my size.  Or have to resort to MOM jeans. I LOVE being a mom. but it doesn't mean I have to go out and drive a Ford MiniVan and dress like a Memmere'.

I am single and my kids are almost grown up enough to be out in the world alone.  It is time for me to shine, time for me to go out and have some fun!  I have found a great guy to do it with.  Look out world here I come!

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: Coffee
• Lunch: Salad w/ steak, ACV & oregano
• Snack: Apple
• Dinner: Chicken w/peppers & onions
• Desert: strawberries w/stevia - Frozen

P2D24 - 1 lb released. And its a beautiful day

It is gorgeous day out. I need to get out and put up the scarecrow and some hay w/pumpkins. it is officially Autumn.  I decided that I am going to continue P2 thru to 40 days. That should take me to mid october, so by Halloween I will be in P3 or P4 and thanksgiving I will be ready for Load days again.

Still trying to decide if I want to extend P4 untill Christmas and do my Load days then.
Will have to sit down do the math on how many days that is, then decide.  LOVING Protocol, nervous about going on to P3. :)

Today's Plan:

• Breakfast: tea
• Lunch: chicken, salad, apple
• Dinner: Steak, asparagus, strawberries

TGIF! P2D24 - .5

I am tired today, didn't get enough sleep. What a difference it makes in my mood.
I still feel GOOD, just sleepy w/ a bit of a headache. going to take something for it instead of suffering thru like I usually try to do.
I think today will be a good day to actually take a nap when I get home from work.
Only working day job today. I have the night off from Home Depot. woot!
Standing on my feet at night for an extra 4 hours after a 9 hr day at day job...I am getting too old for this!

got lots of water today. and TMI ALERT. I think I have a yeast infection due to the antibiotic. URG!!!!
Sometimes being a girl sux. Could also be why I am so exausted today.
I have to eat in the Cafeteria again today. which means grilled chicken I think. I can't think of anything else down there I can eat. there is veggies and salad. but besides hard boiled eggs, there is not much that does not have sauce or oil on it. *sigh*

I find that when I feel blah or just plain sick. i want comfort food, I want to throw my hands up and say screw it, plunk down a chicken parm sandwich and devoure it. Not because I am hungy but because it makes me FEEL good. The soft warm bread and the gooey cheese just make me happy. Which is wrong. well not wrong, but there are other things that make me happy...a nice walk in the park, a hug from a loved one. Cooking. But food is easy, it is a quick fix.   Sometimes I feel like my relationship with food is like that of a drug addict. I dream about it sometimes, and I think about it, and it makes me feel good.
I need to find a new outlet for my moodiness.  

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: Water, apple
• Lunch: lettuce, grilled chicken
• Dinner: Fish, & Chard sauted w/chicken broth.
• Strawberries

P2D28 - WOOT!!! released 2 lb! It's about time!

It seemed I would be at 217 forEVA! ok so it was 3 days...still it was nerve wracking thinking maybe the HCG was not working anymore. or that I somehow became immune already. Ok so I was being neurotic...I admit it!  Sticking to plan. Drinking TONS of water. That is the trick...at least a gallon of water. no nibbles to taste anything not on protocol!!! Bad Kim!

So today I am at 21 lb released. Could be better, but I will TAKE IT!  I see people now that I know are struggling with weight loss and want to shout from the rooftops, TRY THIS!!!  It takes alot of discipline but it truely works! not like the Hydroxycut, or the dexitrim or any of those amp up your heart rate ruin your stomache type of HYPE. But you can't be running up to co-workers and Touting the virtues of HCG...unless they ask. I really wish some of them would.  Maybe when I actually lose 40 lbs they will. I love this plan.

Although I am really missing breakfast cereal at the moment. And I have learned to love apples.
Feeling absolutley fabulous!  no headaches, no digestive problems ...it's great!

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: Apple, coffee
• Lunch: Grilled chicken, salad
• Dinner: Fish, sauted cabbage, strawberries.

P2D27 - only down 19. What am I doing wrong?

Up 0.5lb - I have BARELY cheated...I had a Tbsp of navy beans about a week ago. I ate probably 5 oz of shrimp at a party instead of 3.  I tried chocolate delight which made me stall about 2 weeks ago.
What is up?  I am getting discouraged.  I followed the plan to the letter the last 2 days...and I am UP .5?
*sigh*  nothing to do but keep on keeping on.  I think I am pre-menopausal...which MAY have something to do with it. I am also on Antibiotics (amoxicillin for strep throat) So I am HOPING that has something to do with this. because I have been REALLY good.

Don't get me wrong... I feel fantastic. I am taking MSM and my joints feel better, and hoping it will help with any skin sagging in the future as other have claimed it does.  I am drinking tons of water and the skin on my face is GREAT without moisterizer and no make up.  So I am very happy with how I feel. I just wish the scale would reward me with more releases.

I am going to start watching for ketones and maybe focus on that instead of the scale.
Off to get more water!  Happy Wednesday!

Today's Plan:

• Breakfast: Coffee, Red Delicious Apple
• Lunch: grilled steak over raw spinach w/ACV, thyme & oregano
• Dinner: Fish & swiss chard sauted in fat free chicken broth.
• Snack: either an apple or strawberries w/stevia

Still at 216.5. WTF?

This protocol is so unforgiving. blah. but looking forward to more releases. I guess this is another stall. Which will move on eventually. but it is discouraging. 
I even drank a california kicker yesterday...but only one. Maybe it takes 2. Anyway I plan to stick to protocol to the letter! And did yesterday too. I guess I need to get out there and move or something, I know we are not supposed to excersize but I think I will take a nice walk at lunch. nothing too long, but something!

Also tomorrow considering going to the steam room to sweat some of the toxins out of my body from the anitbiotics.
Today's Plan:

• Brkfst. Coffee, green apple
• Lunch: grilled steak, lettuce w/1 slice of tomato & ACV
• dinner: chicken breast, melba toast, cabbage soup, apple,

up .5 lb?

Ok yesterday I was at 216  and this morning I am up .5 lb. I did go to a party last night. But I only drank seltzer water w/ lemon all night, and ate celery and about 7 Shrimp w/ a tiny tiny bit of coctail sauce.
I also ate 5 strawberries....that's it.
I thought I did so well. But hey, it's .5 of a lb and I shouldn't complain.

it will come back off. just dissapointed since I thought I would actually release.
Still on antibiotics, blech.
going to be extra good today and hopefully release some weight tomorrow. never did get to do the california kicker. may try to do it today.

Oh and the smooth move tea, works great. doesn't make you cramp or the opposite of what you started with. :)

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: coffee
• Lunch: egg white omlet, w/red peppers. apple
• Dinner: talapia, melba toast, kale, apple.

P2D21 - no release

Well I am still at 217.0 not sure why, I followed to the letter. but had a grissani bread stick at dinner. Going to eliminate it again from the plan. - also going to try the "California Kicker" it sounds gross. but I would do just about anything to release more weight. so drinking a tea made from lemon juice and cayanne pepper can't be TOO bad...right?  I'll let you know.

Decided it had been over 20 days since I mixed the first dose of HCG, and it might be losing it's potency.
Since I can't be on it for more than 40 injections, and there was about 4 left. I would just mix up a new batch since I was going to have to anyway.  Thought about changing to sublingual...but hey...if it ain't broke don't fix it!
Today's Plan:

• Brkfst: 1/2 grapefruit, coffee
• Lunch: cabbage soup, shredded chicken
• snack: california kicker
• Dinner: steak, spinach, apple

D21 P2 - down 19 lbs - feel aweful today

Yep strep throat stinks! still feel aweful, will be on amoxicillin for 10 days. hoping that it will not cause another stall, going to really stick to the protocol and hope for the best. I want to curl up on the sofa with a big bowl of chicken soup. will have to settle for cabbage soup w/chicken I think.

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: apple, coffee
• Lunch: spinach w/ ACV and LA w/broiled fish
• Dinner: chicken, w/cabbage soup.  strawberries

P2D20 released 2 lbs!

So yesterday was sort of an apple day...only because I couldn't swallow anything but baked apple.
I went to the Dr. and I have strep throat and a ear infection. BLAH

On Amoxicillin and pain med. still can hardly swallow. HATE HATE HATE being sick. achey all over.
drinking tea. blah


Today's plan:

• Brkfst: baked apple, tea
• Lunch: asparagus, fish
• Dinner: Steak, red peppers & red onion,  strawberries.

Sick! didn't release anything this morning

AND I am sick sick sick. Not sure if I will be able to eat today. I have terrible strep throat, having a hard time drinking water. I get it in my mouth and my throat refuses to swallow.   BF is going to get my amoxicillian, and motrin 800. can't wait till it gets here, I feel like someone beat me with a baseball bat.
This is weird because I was FINE yesterday. didn't feel sick at all!  Woke up Aat 3 am with a fever of 102.2 and headache and sore throat and body aches.   Went to Dr. ..Strep and ear in fection. BLAH!

May just eat the nice soft baked apples today. and some fat free chicken broth.
Going to make TEA, and hope my body allows me to drink it.

P2 D18 down 1 lb or .5 lb?

Ok...this is odd. When I weigh myself after using the bathroom in the morning (around 6:30 am)
It said I was at 220.  Then I took my shower and weighed myself again...(around 7:00)  and it was at 219.5
I would think the weight would go up not down. It has done this 2 days in a row.
I'm confused.

anyway I am drinking more water. Also I forgot to take my injection yesterday.
I have been taking Saturday off from injections not to build up an immunity...but forgot to take it yesterday as I had to work and was rushing to get out of the house on time.
Hopefully this will not affect my releases.

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: Coffee w shot of espresso, black
• Lunch: 1/2 C fat free cottage cheese over lettuce w/apple cidar vinegar
• snack: 1 handfull whole strawberries - about 5 large - stevia
• Dinner: 3.5 oz steak w/ asparagus, baked apple

P2D15 - released 2 lbs woot!

So I guess I didn't need to worry after all. I released 2 lbs this morning. I guess I just wasn't getting in enough water. Just need to stick to Protocol and it works, I am not even hungry. My tummy was rumbling a bit this morning but I had my coffee and a baked apple and I am all good.

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: coffee & baked apple
• Lunch: cottage cheese & lettuce
• Dinner: steak & cabbage. Apple.

No loss again today. P2D15 - 222.5

Ok so I need to learn not to give in to what other people think. I had sorbet yesterday, only so that no one would ask me why I was not eating when the rest of the Dept was...on our outing.
So I had about a 1/4 cup of strawberry kiwi sorbet. This was the best option since everthing else was homemade icecream or pie.  - I SHOULD have gone with my gut and had black coffee.

so no loss today. I was thinking of an apple day...but after speaking with my guru online.(Thanks Michelle!) I have decided to just stick to plan. Also next time I order HCG it will be in a smaller quantity to keep potency.
Back to drinking my gallon of water and on Protocol.

Today I went online to Cheapvitamins.com and ordered Liquid Stevia and 2 suppliments: MSM and Magnesium.- hopefully to be delivered quickly. :)

Today's plan: Water, water, and more water!!!

• Brkfst: coffee w/shot of expresso - black
• Lunch: 1.5 cups shredded lettuce, grilled catfish w/liquid aminos.
• snack: 1 apple
• Dinner: Chicken & asparagus - (either a baked apple or strawberries)

P2 D14 - No release today

Hmmm well I thought I didn't drink enough water yesterday. I usually get in a gallon I think I drank 1.5 qts.
AND I tried making the Chocolate Delight that is on you tube, and it says you can have it on P2. 
Either that or the hamburger I made myself had too much fat. I bought grassfed beef, 93% lean. made a 3.5 oz patty, cooked on forman grill, put between 2 peices of lettuce w/a slice of tomato and some mustard.
It was SOOO Good. (maybe too good) 

Also feel a bit bloated, like a need to go to the bathroom. So lets hope tomorrow shows some improvement on all fronts.  Going to drink some Green tea to get things moving. And drink ALL my water!
And get outside for a walk.

Today's Plan:

• brkfst: 1 apple w a pinch of sea salt
• lunch: shrimp and sauted spinach
• dinner: ? fat free cottage cheese, melba toast & asparagus (maybe)
• snack: baked apple

A little unsure today

So I am down .5 lb today. but unsure if I am losing less because of my choices.
I made Chocolate delight from a HCG recipe. Not sure if it is for P2, yet is says it is. It has coconut oil in it.
I put about a Tbs crumbled over my strawberries and I did have the tiniest of tastes of frosting of my BF B-Day cake. I also used panko bread crumbs on the fish. Yet I took most of it off when I ate it.

I shouldn't second guess myself and just get on with it...a loss is a loss. I didn't gain.
:)

Today's plan:

• 1/2 grapefruit
• 3 oz cooked fish, over steamed cabbage
• hamburger lettuce wrap w/tomato.

P2D12 released 0.5 lb

So I guess eating the chicken cooked on the bone w/skin slowed my release. I took it off the bone and removed the skin, but I think there was still too much fat on it. I usally only eat boneless, skinless chicken breast. So today I need to be sure to drink ALL my water and really stick to it. I am never sure exactly how much veggies I am supposed to eat. ie: 1 cup cooked chard or 1 cut raw then cook?  I get the fruit, I have no problem with that. but P&I is so vague on the veggie serving size. A Handfull is not a measurement.

Still, it is a loss. so GO ME! down 13 lbs from the first VLCD day. I am loving the ease of this protocol.
Still hard to want to cook a huge meal for my BF when I am not eating any of it.  But I am. And staying on track.
Today's plan:

• Brkfst: 1 apple sliced w/a tad of sea salt, coffee
• Lunch: 3.5 oz shrimp cooked w/chard & tomato
• Dinner: 3.5 oz Hake fish, sauted w/ spinach, strawberries w/stevia

Happy Labor day. P2D11 - Released 1.5 lbs

Was afraid that I didn't drink enough water yesterday, but still released 1.5 lbs. woke up with a horrible headache. drinking lots of water today.
Went looking for Grass fed beef today...hard to find in reg. grocery.
kind of pricey. I did get some in ground beef, only 6% fat, also bought organic apples, grapefruit, chard and wild catfish and hake.
All of it is now neatly packaged in 3.5 oz servings in the freezer.  Also made meatballs from HCG recipe.
Tonight made chicken legs for dinner, took the skin off and weighed out 3 oz. hopefully they were not too fatty to affect releases tomorrow.
Today's menu:

• brkfst: baked apple, coffee
• Lunch: creamed chicken soup *HCG recipe
• Dinner: chicken leg, swiss chard, baked apple

P2D10 0.5 lb release

It is funny to say I am thrilled at a half pound loss. But yesterday was my nephews wedding, and I still released .5 of a lb!  I prepared well, ate lunch as usual, I did skip my fruit servings for the day.
Steared clear of the bread basket and pushed the potatoes off to the side and skipped them. Ate what I thought was just a bit over 4 oz of beef and the asparagus. And skipped eating ANY cake, even though it was red velvet cake which I LOVE.   I am so proud of myself!
I also skipped a dose of HCG yesterday morning as I have decided Saturday will be my skip day. (it is recommended for injections to skip one day a week to avoid immunity)

P2D8 - Released 1.5lbs Total of 9.5 lbs released! woo hoo!

Happy Friday Morning. I am LOVING this protocol!!! I was a little hungry this morning. I think I did a bit more walking around yesterday at work. I have not been eating the allowed melba toast yet. Today I got some and I am going to try it with my tomato "soup" at lunch. I am hoping this will not slow my current releases. if it does, I will go back to leaving it out.

Today's Plan:

• Brkfst - coffee, 1/2 grapefruit w/stevia
• Lunch - tomato "soup", grilled chicken, melba toast
• Dinner - spicy beef over lettuce.

P2D7 (day 6 VLCD) I am Down 1.0 lb! Woot

Down another pound woo hoo!  this makes 8 lbs so far.

Got up early today to make sure I had time to prepare my lunch. I was worried yesterday about eating in the cafe' but I found a nice salad bar and got romain lettuce and the grill made me a nice little peice of grilled chicken. It was probably 4 oz rather than the 3. But I have not been eating the melba toast allowed. So I figured it would all work out.  (and from the release I would say I guessed right)

Today's plan:

• Brkfst: 1/2 grapefruit w/Stevia.
• Lunch: grilled steak marinated in liquid aminos, asparagus grilled w/lemon juice
• Dinner: Tomato "soup" with grilled chicken and a baked apple.

Yesterday on the way home I stopped at a farmer's market and got the most beautiful apples, grapefruits, and asparagus! I bought Bananas and a nice Banana bread for my sons.  Can't wait for lunch!

P2D6 Down .5 lb

So I thought I would lose at least a 1lb a day. but .5 is better than nothing.
I am drinking so much water I am getting up 3x a night for bathroom breaks.
This morning a little hungry, ate 1/2 my apple.
Today's challenge I didn't bring my lunch to work. So I have to brave the cafeteria
I am hoping for a nice peice of grilled chicken I can put over some lettuce or raw spinach.

P2D5 Down 1.5

And down a total of 6.5! woo hoo!
I licked the ice cream spoon last night. I couldn't help it!!!  but I did NOT have ice cream so that is a plus.
I made baked apples for desert.  Took an apple, cored it. sprinkled it with raw organic apple cider vinegar.
Then sprinkled with stevia in the raw packet and cinnamon. Wrapped in foil and baked.
It was soooooooo Good!  of course the BF had it with ice cream. LOL. 
This would be a great breakfast on P3 with some granola or yogurt.

Happy Tuesday!

VLCD Day 2. Monday

Weighed in this morning at 231.0.0
Today I have a Grapefruit and a stevia in the Raw packet. Some lettuce & tomato topped with Grilled chicken sprinkled with Cayenne pepper. I have applecider vineger to put on if it is too dry.
Tonight I am planning on Sauted spinach & red onion, w/liquid aminos, and a grilled steak.
I have green tea and lots of water on hand.

So far it is almost 11 and all I have had is coffee, and I am ok with it. not really hungry. yay.

I wish however I didn't have to get up 4x last night for bathroom breaks!

Day 1 VLCD (yesterday)

Well I think I am doing pritty well. I have PREPARED like crazy. Measured out my meats in little freezer bags so I can take out my portion when I am cooking for my family. I have already chopped and prepared veggies so I can be ready to cook. I did GREAT last night I had made a lasagna for Family.
I didn't even TASTE it!
I took out my chicken and sauted with onions and cabbage and some spices. I had some strawberries with stevia on the side. it was great! didn't even miss the lasagna. go me!  For lunch I had a spinach salad with Shrimp on top, with lemon and apple cider vineger. and my apple.
It was pritty tasty! and this morning I am down 5 lbs!!! Woot.

HCG DAY 1! Mixing delemas and solutions

Well I saw so many different recipes for HCG sublingual that I got totally confused. So I am doing injections.
My son is a diabetic, and has a whole box of needles we put away since they came out with the insulin Pens.
So I figured I would just use those, we have 100 of them!

So here is my mix. I decided on 150 IUs per day.
There were a few different directions on how to mix for different dosing. I thought I would go with the smallest amount of injection material (ie: .25cc per day as opposed to a full 1 cc per day) easier to inject.
The instructions said for a dose of 150 IU from a  .25cc injection. You would mix a 5000 IU ampule with 8.25 cc of Bacteriostatic Water or Saline.
My HCG came with a large Seringe 15 cc/ml. and a small seringe 1 cc/ml (I only used the larger one when mixing.)
I sterilized all bottles with an alcohol wipe.
I mixed 1cc Saline with the powder to liquify, swirling gently.
I then pulled 7.25 cc's of air from my amber bottle and pushed 7.25cc's of air INTO the Saline Solution bottle. I then withdrew 7.25 cc's of Saline.
I then injected the 7.25cc's of Saline into my amber bottle.
I then withdrew the 1 cc of liquified HCG making sure not to make bubbles and getting every drop.
I then gently inserted the HCG into the saline in the Amber bottle.
after my first .25cc injection I refridgerated it.
:)

I am now loading...ick. I feel sick actually.  For brkfst: I had McDonalds egg,cheese, & ham bisquit and a breakfast burrito AND a strawberry bananna smoothie. At 11:00 I had an apple turnover and coffee. For lunch at 1:00 I ate a huge plate of eggplant parm with ziti. And I wanted to throw up. I have a huge cookie and soy milk for a snack and I can't bring myself to eat it.
I am going to have a hard time getting down dinner. I am not used to eating so much food!!!

THURSDAY. T-1 day left before HCG!!!

Woot! Can't WAIT for tomorrow to be here. going to start my HCG and my LOAD days.
I plan on going to the grocery and the healthfood store to get:
Avacados,  and lots of Fattening foods for my load days.
SeaSalt, Apples, strawberries and Grapefruits from the organic section. And Raw apple cider vinager and Organic coconut oil from the health food store.  And LOTS of veggies and organic meats.
Getting the house ready for P2VLCD Day 1! which should be Sunday.
Wish me luck!

Oh and on a side note. I will never do an Acai Berry Cleanse again. I felt just aweful and the 3rd day on the pills I had terrible loose BMs. Felt bloated and icky from day 2. blah
BF is on Green Tea Cleanse said that by day 4 he felt really weird. (he didn't explain further) but he quit taking the pills too. I think we will stick with LOTS of water and not take pills.

Feeling gross and a bit of TMI

So I started with that Acai Berry Cleanse. it has resulted in soft stools and I have a weird taste and feeling in my mouth and feel awefull. Didn't take the second dose last night before bed. feel a bit better this morning.
I think I will quit while I am ahead.

Weighed in and maybe because I had cheese and crackers last night before my night job...I am up .5 lb
Drinking more water. not really doing much but trying to eat a basic healthy diet till Friday when I start my load days.
Still looking for a better sublingual mix that does not use alcohol or Silver.

Planning to Start HCG on Friday!

Ok, 2nd full day on the Acia Berry Cleanse Tablets. I did drop a few pounds from the other day. But nothing seems to be "moving" at any significant rate.  Not really worrying about it.
I Did weigh myself today and took my measurements: 233 lbs  
Upper arm (L): 14" 
Bust: 47"
Waist: 40.5
Hips: 45
Butt: 47
Upper Thigh (L): 28 (R) 29
just above knee: 22.5

Wow that hurt to actually write down. ish.
But I wanted a record so that later I can be proud of what I have lost and know exactly what it is.
Until recently I never weighed myself when not on weight watchers and I have NEVER measured myself.
It was enlightening, and lets me know I am doing the right thing in getting myself to a healthier weight and eating habit.

Before Pictures coming soon.
:)

It's Here, It's Here!!!

Now to just wait for TOM to be done...which should be today.  Then going to do my load days Fri. and Sat. and start the VLC diet on Sunday.
I have bought a CLEANSE and taken it yesterday and today...not much going on...drinking lots of water.
Hopefully it will actually do something before my load days.
going to query the group about continuing to use a cleanse during the VLCD.

I am so very excited! 

Confirmation and Anticipation!

Have my confirmation of order placed and shipped. Now the anticipation of getting ready to start this new Journey to a Healthier and slimmer me is underway. Going to look into "Cleanses" while I wait for it to arrive.
I am starting my TOM today, so will be done and ready to get started when it is over. WOO HOO!

Looked up Candidia cleanses, but those are mostly natural ways of eating and eliminating all starches from your diet...which I will be doing on the actucal VLCD.
Have not seen anything like a pill or drink for this.

Read parts of Kevin Trudeau's book again and will go over the diet and protocol again this weekend.
Filled in the BF on what I am going to be doing and I have his full support and he promises to help me stay on plan. yay!

OH and I weighed myself today...I know it is my TOM but 236 lbs!!! OMG! it is worse than I thought!
CAN'T wait to get started and feeling better about myself.
See you next week!

Waiting for the HCG to arrive

8/19/10
I feel like a little kid before Christmas. I am so excited to do this new Protocol. I have printed out tons of info. Researched online and now I can't wait to get started.
I am posting the ephiany photo. You know...that photo you finally see and realize how unhealthy and FAT you have become. Any overweight person knows what I mean. I mean I KNOW I need to lose weight, and have done the more water, eating less, but something always come around and you forgo the good intentions and you try to overlook the fact that your clothes don't fit right and that you don't like looking in the mirror anymore.  THIS is the photo that hit me right between the eyes and said GIRL you NEED to do something.

So I have ordered my HCG. I am going to use the sublingual meathod.
I will post my actual weight when I start my loading days and am going to take my measurements and some Photos (oh I dread taking the photos!)
But I want to have something to look back at and say LOOK! I DID IT!