physician heal thyself

Yeah  Yeah I tell people who ask about the protocol of weight loss that WATER is the key...drink lots of it
This morning I weighed in...and little to no loss.

I looked at my tracker...I drank an extra cup of coffee yesterday and almost NO water. 1 bottle...that's it.
SO I need to take my own advice and drink drink drink.

I find I actually get thirsty in the night...I used to go days without water when I was younger. soda, tea coffee yes..but water, I would turn my nose up at it.
Which is also why I was overweight.

So today I take my own advice. and drink at least eight 8oz glasess of water.
It helps that I have a 32 oz cup with a cover and straw at my desk. :)

so I am off..to get more water...(and go to the bathroom AGAIN)

Today's plan:
Brkfst: apple, blk coffee
Lunch: cabbage & chicken breast saute.
Dinner: broiled steak and asparagus, sugar free jello & apple chunks.

Day 3 VLCD

Doing well, down 2 lbs this AM.   I am never sure what I should say I lost...the full amount from first day of VLCD or the weight from BEFORE load days.
I am currently at 210.0  started at 213.8.  Weight after Load days was 217.0
yes I gained 3.2 lbs loading. What a wake up call that is.  I always feel like crap loading too.

Not sure if I need to take a larger dose, I am a little hungry yesterday and today.
I might up it tomorrow and see how I feel the next day. I know it takes a few days to enter your system fully.

But getting back down makes me feel fantastic. I can deal with a little hunger.  No headache though. So YAY!

I am a bit stressed this week, which could also contribute to the hunger issue. (yes I am a carboholic and a stress eater) not a good combination and one of the reasons I gain weight easily...there is ALWAYS STRESS!! LOL

Today's lunch, egg whites are stuffed with cheery tomatoes. :)
Dinner will be Steamed Talapia with asparagus and lemon juice.  sugar free jello w/strawberries.

On my way, sticking to plan.

I am going to try to make a concious effort to blog everyday here or on my Sparkpeople page. I think it will force me to look at what I am eating once I am out of this phase of the diet.

Doing well, Cooking for the Family, then taking out my portion, and not eating the carbs and fats. But I refuse to cook seperate meals for myself.

I decided to crochet yesterday instead of watching football with the guys, too many temptations out there!! Cheese and crackers, salsa and chips, potato chips and sour cream onion dip. I LOVE CHIPS AND DIP!!
But I was not feeling very strong yesterday. so I sequestered myself away and did some projects I needed to finish.


Aren't they cute, crochet Christmas balls, I stuffed with fiberfill.
Going to make a bunch fo them.

As for the diet: doing really well:
Oct. 18 – 214.8 – Load day 1
Oct. 19 – 216.8 - Load day #2
Oct. 20 – 217.8 - First day of restricted diet.
Oct 21 – 213.8
Oct 22 – 212.0

As my nutritionist likes to say...none of the white DEATH...yes, she's a bit dramatic.
No Sugar, no flour, no rice, no potatoes, no milk products.
No oils, limited fats (for the first 6 weeks)
No high sugar fruits. (I can have apples, strawberries, grapefruit and orange)
Proteins and low carb veggies (no winter squash, corn, peas or carrots)

I WILL REACH GOAL!!!

Best of Intentions - Weekends are HARD.

So I am home all day, with my evil Carboholic self. - I have the best of intentions..but sometimes I spontanious give in, then kick myself later.
I didn't do too badly, homemade yogurt and fresh peaces with stevia for Breakfast. and pumpkin coffee. however for lunch I ate blue corn chips and spinach dip.  I guess it could have been worse.


Today's snack, red kiwi and star fruit.



Went grocery shopping and decided to try new fruits, I bought red kiwi, asian pears, and star fruit.

The red kiwi was a little bitter. but love the star fruit.

I also bought, a whole pinapple, and gala apples. 

LOTS of veggies (fresh spinach, zuccini, summer squash, red onions, cabbage, bok choy, lettuce, english cucumbers and romain lettuce.)  I completely forgot to get more berries for my homemade yogurt.

Later I am going to make some sugar free jello, and put in some of the pears and apples.

I need to get out and take a nice long walk, however I will probably just wind up running up and down stairs to do laundry.

Last night I made chicken broccoli alfredo.   Tonight will consist of left overs.
Served over NO YOLK egg noodles.
Not the best DIET food, but it is low carb and sugar free.

Cooking chicken, broccoli alfredo sauce.

Lost it, Gained it, Learned alot

So, since July, when I was doing AWESOME and maintaining I have had several things happen that made me relaps into the CARBOHOLIC that I am.
Yes I admit it. and on the 12 steps sometimes I slip down to the bottom.

Recap:  My Uncle Bill died in March, which we sort of expected. Then my Aunt Billie passed the beginning of August, also expected she had been sick for some time. But my Uncle John, her husband was NOT expected, died 3 weeks after her. My mother and I went down to AR for Bill's and John's funerals, we had to miss Aunt Billie's.
That and alot of other STUFF happening, good and bad.

Enough excuses!  I had my fun times of not caring what I ate. I ENJOYED my time in the South as much as one can at a funeral, I got to visit with relatives I hadn't seen in over 10 yrs. and ATE like a southern girl again.
OMG if I lived there I guess I could resist, but on a visit...and this is also NO EXCUSE I could have BEHAVED MYSELF, and still endulged, but I jumped in with BOTH FEET.
CARB GLUTTONY...Suuuwwwweeeee GO HAWGS! 
And it continued into my weeks back at home.  Bad Bad Kim.

Ok so here I sit, recognizing that I have a problem, and getting back on the wagon. I am considering doing another round of HCG. But before I start I am going to seriously investigate my addiction.
I am going to cut most of the carbs, and sugar from my diet.
(yesterday I mindlessly ate 1/4 of a gallon of frozen vanilla yogurt. I didn't even enjoy it.)
Geesh!

I am still excersizing, THANK GOD! or I think I would be back at starting weight. as it is, I am up 10 lbs.

THE PLAN:
Cut carbs and sugar to a minimum.
Excersize 4 - 5x per week for 30 min or more
track my caloric intake on Sparkpeople
Weigh in 1 or 2x per week
BLOG ABOUT IT ALL.
Maybe start a food journal with photos.

My Conscious watching me at all times!

Before and ON MY WAY!

So this is my before and after photo. I am still on my journey to lose another 25 lbs.
But wow.  this has worked so well for me.
I just got back from vacation and only gained 1 lb, and should be back down now that I am home eating healthy again.

I am going to do one more round and hopefully make goal.  25 more lbs.
To date I have lost 48 lbs!!  2 more and I can post that big 50 LOST.
I have another before and after but I feel like I am not ready to show that one yet...ish.

BOTH of these photos were taken on the 4th of July. 2 yrs apart.

Feeling Awesome.

This is an odd realization... I have finally become one of those people that have sweat obvious on their shirt when they finish a workout. I used to envy those people...thinking why can't I work that hard?

well I finally figured it out...when I started...18 months ago, my body wasn't READY for that. I couldn't workout on the eliptical without getting winded after 10 min. Biking...2 - 5 resista

 

I had to work up to the being THAT woman...They told me it would come with time...but I am impatient...I thought I am just not good enough. I will never get there.

Today. I was on the bike...resistance 14! for 35 min! sweat dripping down my face...sounds disgusting...but for me, it is a HUGE accomplishment!
18 mon ago I was 47 lbs heavier, my knees hurt all the time. 12 months ago I was flat on my back and needed pain meds.

Today, I now can bike, walk and workout with less pain, I am taking Spin classes that last 45 min. I breath better and I look better in my clothes. I am still lazy, I still don't like excersize, and I still have to fight the urge to binge eat.
But I do it, because they really are right, nothing tastes as good as I feel today.

 

I have discovered http://www.holdthecarbs.com/

I can't wait to try some of the products there! I got my package today. I am making mashed fauxtatoes tonight! and maybe make the gluten free/sugar free muffins if it is not too hot in the house tonight.

This site is also very diabetic friendly, which I will push onto my son. :)

nce was my max and for 15 min tops.

Back and ready to Reach it!

So I took an interuption that turned into a Hiatis.
So Sorry Blog that I neglected you during that time.
But I am BACK and ready to reach that Goal.
I was up a bit...nothing Major, and no where near the 242 I stared at.

So today I am at 208.6.   Started at 209.8   loaded for 2days gained 2 lbs and now down 3. Woo Hoo!

Today's eating plan:
Brkfst: Coffee, Apple with cinnamon and stevia
Lunch: steamed talapia over salad. Fat Free/ Sugar free Balsamic vinegrett
Dinner: Chicken grilled, w/ spinach & onion.
Snack: strawberries & stevia