I am such a SLACKER!

OK so I have gained and lost the same 1 lb over the last week or so, I know it is because of the holidays and all the STUFF that I love tempting me to take just a taste here, a nibble there...I am not HUGELY disappointed in myself because I am enjoying the holidays. VERY much in fact. And have not once PIGGED OUT. just ate a bit here and there.   I really really need to get back on track since I am getting married on NYE, and would like to look my best. I will NOT be at goal, but I have to say that I look pritty good in my clothes now.
Back down to a 14 which is what I have been in most of my adult life. Overweight I am at a 16 - 18.
Yes it would be GREAT to get into a size 9 like I was in high school, but lets not get stupid.
And I have NEVER EVER been a size 2. even in GRADE SCHOOL LOL.
I am 5'10" tall, and according to the Dr. I have a med. to large frame. (I have line backer shoulders)
So I am not trying to be in a size 2.   I hope everyone else had a wonderful holiday! 

FINALLY!!! ONEDERLAND!

Just barely, but still below 200. 199.5 I think I cheered!
I have been slacking but still losing slowly slowly.  I have more of an incentive.  I ordered my dress online.
Getting MARRIED on NYE!!! wooo hoooo!
Just a JP, coming and we are getting married in front of the Christmas Tree!
of course there WILL be pictures!

Today's plan:
Brkfst: apple
Lunch: salad w/ grilled chicken
Dinner: baked chicken & veggies.
(ok so I ate a munchkin this AM. shoot me!)

Down 1 lb - so very close to ONEderland

was stuck, mainly due to my lack of discipline, so I did an apple day yesterday.
today down. YES!!
Tomorrow is shopping day with MOM. we traditionally go out on a Monday Christmas shopping.
Then have lunch at Olive garden. I have a plan. Going to get some sort of fish...ask for salad NO DRESSING. avoid the bread!!! which will be hard. And TRY to stay on plan.
Will bring an apple with me just in case.  I figure if I eat that first I won't be STARVING.

Too many things going on in my life that are stressing me out. I am hoping to be past it all by Christmas.
But it makes an emotional eater like me find it very hard not to whip up some comfort food and pig out.
Doing extrodinarily well under the circumstances.  :)

Today's plan:
Brkfst: orange
Lunch Chicken, lettuce & tomato
Dinner: steak, onions, apple.

dowl .5 lb - yay!

It's a start anyway. I am still feeling icky. taking zinc and eating an orange for breakfast. I also got some throat lozenges that have vitamin C in them.   yes they have sugar in them, but I think my health comes before weight loss.   And it is not much. Trying to get in all my water.
used the last of the first mixture, mixing up a new batch of HCG tomorrow.
currently taking .5 cc at 150IU per day. Skipping Sundays.

Today's Plan:
Brkfst: Orange
Lunch: Talapia and spinach w/onions
Dinner: Chicken breast, asparagus. - Apple

Stalled

Mainly due to TOM and when I have it, I am ravenous! I ate stuff off plan...not much but I did.
So I have been at 203 for 5 days. Today I have stuck to protocol to the letter and drinking lots of tea and water. And if I am not down tomorrow, I will do an apple day.
I am also coming down with something, which makes me want to curl up on the sofa with comfort food, the cat and a blanket.
But I am controlling myself, I keep telling myself, you spent good money on this plan, now stop sabotaging yourself and stick to it!!! 

Today's plan:
Brkfst: Orange
Lunch: lettuce, cucumber, onion, chicken, soy sauce, rice wine vinegar
Dinner: Talapia, onions & spinach, melba toast, Apple

??? TOM? You're not supposed to be here.

OK so last night I did something I havn't done in years. I lost control and binged on a bunch of stuff.
NOT a HUGE binge comparatively speaking, but ate a bunch of stuff off protocol.  a couple gingersnaps, a bite of ice cream, some chicken breast. (after I had already had dinner) it was odd, I felt like I could eat a horse.  (going to skip my injection today)

And I ate, knowing it was off plan and I didn't care. Then this morning out of the blue, TOM showed up.
Maybe this is why, I don't know. I am only up 1.5 lb and I know I will get back on track and lose it, but it was just odd.  I get TOM once every 3 months due to the BC I am on. not due to have it till End of Dec.

Meh. I am not going to beat myself up about the eating, I am just going to get back on track and let it go. Stressing over it will just cause me to go into another Binge or give up on the plan. Look ma, I learned a lesson! LOL.

Anyhow, today's plan:
Brkfst: 1 orange, coffee
Lunch: grilled chicken, cabbage.
Dinner: Ground beef "chili", lettuce & tomato. Apple.

Feeling awesome today!

Except I seem to be having to go to the ladies room MORE than usual. even when I do drink my tons of water. I think I am going to have to invest in some DEPENDS!
But seriously, I feel like I am going every 30 min. geesh.
I released a half a lb today. go me!   I like the 1 lb a day releases, but hey, lets not get GREEDY right?

I am so close to ONEderland I can almost taste it!!! 3 more lbs. I havn't been under 200 lbs in years!
And I was in denial about it for such a long time.  I kept using the excuse that I am a TALL girl, and never been small. (I have the linebacker shoulders of my brother - back when shoulder pads were IN. I didn't need them. LOL)   But I can see that all that self talk was Bullsh**.
I CAN be under 200 and over 40! even at 5'10".

Today's plan:
Brkfst: 1/2 grapefruit w/Truvia & cinnamon.
Lunch: chicken, raw spinach & 1/4 tomato w/ ACV
Dinner: ?

Down another 1 lb!

Going to get my water and drink drink drink, because I know I ate a bit more chicken than 3 oz last night. but I will take the loss!  I also ate 1 potato and the chicken was cooked with skin, which I removed after.
That usually does not go well with my diet. BUT IT WAS GOOOOOD.

Tonight I will have to curb my craving for pasta. I am making american chop suey for my family...which we all love. Pasta is my weekness. But I CAN DO IT!!! :)
I am feeling AWESOME today. After about a week on the VLCD I got a sence of euphoria. Like my body was singing Hallejulla!!!!!!  I really have to try to find out what makes me feel so sluggish when I am not on the strickness of the VLCD. I have looked up some great gluten free sites. And going to go with that this round once I start P4.

Today's plan:
Brkfst: Apple, w/truvia & cinnamon (yum!)
Lunch: sauted lean ground beef & spinach
Dinner: chicken fried "rice" (ground cabbage) Apple.

R2P2Day4VLCD - Down .5 :)

Feeling soooooo much better today. Got to go to the store and get some basics. I feel more prepared.
Down 4.5 since start of P2  -
Need to drink more water today.
Stress is much lower today. Long talk with the BF. Life is good. Now if I could win the lottery and have some more $$ it would be perfect!
:)
Today's plan:
Brkfst: 1/2 grapefruit w/stevia, coffee
Lunch: Steak, over lettuce w/ACV dressing
Dinner: Chicken thigh, celery & onion.  Apple.